I went to see a healer. His name is Howard Wills. I haven’t gone to see a healer for a few years for several reasons and you can use this checklist below, when you are deciding whether someone is a good fit for you as a healer, psychic or coach.

Firstly, I needed to know that this healer had a higher vibration than me and was totally aligned with spirit. Yes and yes, he was!

Secondly, I wanted to know that he could hold the space for me to let go of what was holding me back from living my life purpose 100%.

Thirdly, I needed to feel safe enough to surrender to the next stage of my spiritual awakening.

I’ll admit I was nervous about going and seeing this healer because my past pattern many years ago when I got on my spiritual path was from a space of desperation. I was a total love addict and my intention of seeing a psychic or healer was to stop the obsession in my mind over whomever I was romantically involved with.

Seventeen years later, my intention had shifted. Spirit said I needed to get 100% aligned and that was my goal at this healing session. My husband Nick drove me up to the house in a gated community in Beverly Hills. This was where I would meet Howard. I didn’t know what to expect. I felt nervous, as I didn’t like feeling vulnerable. I did my best to stay open minded. My old belief system, “You can’t be spiritual and make money,” was ravaging my mind. When Howard came out to meet us, I felt incredibly uncomfortable because I could feel him see straight through me. I was the one so used to being able to see people beyond what they could see for themselves. Howard was dressed in a long white robe. Again, my mind wanted to go into judgment about how a healer should be dressed, “Was he a charlatan dressed as a guru?”

Nick took Dominick outside to play basketball in the private cul de sac while I sat with Howard. I could feel my ego mind squirming. I didn’t want to share my weaknesses but I did because I knew that this lower vibration needed to be transformed into a lighter more joyful frequency.

Even if you are no longer talking with someone, even if they are dead, their energy can impact you today. I have seen this many times when I’ve worked with clients in a psychic capacity. You may not have spoken with an ex-spouse for ten years but your feelings towards them and their feelings towards you will impact your ability to have a happy loving relationship today.

I went to see Howard to heal my family lineage. My parents choose not to speak to me. They have told me I am evil and that they can never forgive me. I used to think, I won’t be seen as a great intuition coach because I don’t have a wonderful relationship with my parents. What I have learned is the healing has to happen from within yourself. My parents are in my dreams almost every night in the last couple of months. It has been a great loss to me. The better my life got, the more my parents rejected me. I have been using this experience as an opportunity to become a better mother, wife and friend. I pray for my parents every day. Not to make them feel differently about me, of course I would love them to love me, but so they can heal because I feel their pain.

In the past, when I’ve shared about my healing journey, some people have emailed me offering me their coaching services or trying to point out there is something wrong with me. I share about my life to show that I am human and have challenges to. I embrace my spiritual growth because as I learn, I can pass on this gift to others who seek to know how to turn pain into peace.

The key is to feel your feelings. Don’t ignore or deny your feelings otherwise they will control your actions and you will feel imprisoned, powerless to change your situation.

Today here is my prayer for you:

May your heart be filled with the grace of God,

May your soul live its purpose with courage,

May your spirit soar with angel wings of light,

May your days be filled with laughter,

For laughter lifts the mind, body and spirit to a place of joy.

Peace and blessings.

Join me and friends Live in person for The Spring Equinox Healing, Prayer & Manifestation Circle in Santa Monica on Thursday March 22, 2012 @5pm PST. You are invited! This is an opportunity for you to:

• Spring Clean Your Soul
• Pray for loved ones, family, friends and those who are in need around the world
• Awaken Your Intuition to the next level
• Activate the Healer within
• Receive a Message from Spirit about Manifesting your Heart & Soul’s Desire in 2012 and Beyond
• Release money and love energy attachments to create space for abundance and healthy relationships

Please feel free to invite your friends, there is no charge for this event. The ceremony will begin at 5pm and end at 7pm when the sun sets. We are meeting at Lifeguard Station #26 down on the beach at 2600 Barnard Way. South of Ocean Park and Neilson Way intersection. Santa Monica, CA 90405.

Love & Miracles,

Joanna Garzilli

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