I love spring. It gives me a sense of hope and excitement. Where I have been focusing on the negative, I have renewed sight. Things that used to bother me, I see as miracles. People that used to upset me, I now see as spiritual teachers, that we had a sacred contract to fulfill.

Spring is an opportunity to clear away paperwork, get clear on finances and become more aware of what we put in our bodies.

I have a burning desire to talk about SMASH again. My husband and I were watching the fifth episode last night. There’s this scene where Ivy Lynn, the actress who is set to play Marilyn goes to see her director, Derek Wells. Ivy has had a few too many drinks and she shows up late night at Derek’s pad. Their exchange was awkward. She had felt humiliated by the way he had treated her. He told her, that it wasn’t personal, then asked her to stay the night. I wanted to scream at her, “Go home! Derek is no good for you, he’s a narcissist and you are damaged goods”.

I had been in Ivy Lynn’s shoes in the past. Let me confirm that I have never been on Broadway, singing is not my strength but I did have a relationship with a film director when I was an actress. This man was a classic narcissist but I didn’t see him as that. He pursued me for many weeks and the more I said I wasn’t interested, the more he chased after me. I didn’t realize I liked the attention, even though I wasn’t attracted to him and then one night, after we’d finished shooting the movie, we met up for a late night dinner and I said to him “It’s never going to happen”. I believed with every part of my soul that nothing was ever going to happen because my intuition told me from the day I met him that this was a dangerous man, not to be trusted.

Later that night, our relationship began to my absolute surprise, however if I’d been giving myself a psychic reading, it would have been totally apparent that I was about to play with fire. I was in serious denial. As the relationship progressed, I became obsessed with what he thought of me and what he was doing. It was the unhealthiest, toxic type of love and it meant that I couldn’t focus on my work. Everything I did was with the desire to get his approval and so the deal I had with a big TV network fell through and I felt like a victim of Hollywood, used and abused.

Now I can look back and see that this director didn’t do anything wrong. He was being himself and I was set on changing him. My big time talent agency weren’t trying to screw me. I was naïve and didn’t know my worth. Today, when I feel the past pull me backwards, away from the blessings in my life today, I am aware that psychic healing needs to occur. As we form relationships, whether they are romantic, business, friendship that an energy connection is made at a soul level and this energy is connected throughout time and space.

Your past affects your present and your present impacts your future. Where is your mind during the day? Is it focused on a betrayal in a relationship? Is there anything from your past that is affecting the way you make decisions today? If you say no, you are not looking deep enough.

Today is an opportunity to Spring Clean Your Soul. Remove the cobwebs from the past, gently but with intention. I created a guided meditation as part of Big Miracle Breakthrough specifically to Spring Clean Your Soul because I have seen many times for my clients and myself how energy that is invisible to your eyes, impacts your life today.

Spirit gave me the call to host a Spring Equinox Healing, Prayer & Manifestation Circle in Santa Monica on Thursday March 22, 2012 @5pm PST. You are invited! This is an opportunity for you to:

• Spring Clean Your Soul
• Pray for loved ones, family, friends and those who are in need around the world
• Awaken Your Intuition to the next level
• Activate the Healer within
• Receive a Message from Spirit about Manifesting your Heart & Soul’s Desire in 2012 and Beyond
• Release money and love energy attachments to create space for abundance and healthy relationships

Please feel free to invite your friends, there is no charge for this event. The ceremony will begin at 5pm and end at 7pm when the sun sets.  Here is a link to where we are meeting and parking info at Lifeguard Station #26 down on the beach at 2600 Barnard Way. South of Ocean Park and Neilson Way intersection. Santa Monica, CA 90405 R.S.V.P. to Joanna@BigMiracleBreakthrough.com

Joanna Garzilli is an author, entrepreneur, intuition coach and psychic.  Follow her on Twitter here.