Thank you so much for your beautiful prayers reflected back to me, I appreciated your emails:) I also had quite a few of you asking about my healing session with Howard Wills, I promise I will share more details on Friday about what happened!

I got a TV hosting request in from my manager at TVGuestpert. I thought it a good idea to do some research on the TV production company, who were interested in me. As I typed in the name of the company into my iphone and read, I gasped.

“What is it?” my husband Nick said.

I didn’t want to tell him, it was embarrassing, a skeleton in my closet.

“You don’t want to know,” I said.

“Tell me,” he said.

I took a deep breath to find some much needed courage.

“I hooked up with one of the owners of the TV company.”

“Did you sleep with him?” he said.

“Yes, he’s also a famous TV host in the UK,” I said, cringing. I felt so embarrassed.

That summer was a crazy summer. I had written a book called Confessions of a Psychic which I later on threw away because it was written during the peak of my love addiction. I was giving great relationship advice on Live TV but when the focus went back on myself, I couldn’t let myself feel my feeling. I attracted many clients to me who also suffered around love relationships and dating. As I’d tune in for a client, they’d often reflect back what was happening in my own life and spirit would channel the answer through me.

It felt awkward because I wondered if I was really giving true guidance however, at the end of the session, the client would say, “Wow you totally nailed what I’m going through and I feel like I can handle this moving forwards”.

I’m only sharing about my love addiction now because when I was in it, I was ranting and complaining about men betraying me, leading me on, using me. I was a total victim.

As I did the spiritual work, I kept healing. Some days it felt incredibly painful to be with my feelings but I have learned to be with the discomfort because I know the other side of this pain is an ocean of peace where I am deeply connected to spirit. It makes me a better intuitive, psychic and coach. I am able to see with deeper clarity. I see into the depths of a person’s soul. The beautiful lesson I recently learned is just because I can see someone’s garbage and smell it, yes energy has a scent to it as well! It is not my responsibility to clear their blockages unless they want to be helped.

I know many of you reading this are extremely empathetic, meaning you absorb people’s energy, what they are thinking and feeling, you take on, into your own energy field. When you begin to heal your past, things can feel worse before it feels better but know that if you have the courage to clean out the closets of your mind, heart and home, your life will improve in leaps and bounds and miracles will occur!

Join me and friends Live in person for The Spring Equinox Healing, Prayer & Manifestation Circle in Santa Monica on Thursday March 22, 2012 @5pm PST. You are invited! This is an opportunity for you to:

• Spring Clean Your Soul
• Pray for loved ones, family, friends and those who are in need around the world
• Awaken Your Intuition to the next level
• Activate the Healer within
• Receive a Message from Spirit about Manifesting your Heart & Soul’s Desire in 2012 and Beyond
• Release money and love energy attachments to create space for abundance and healthy relationships

Please feel free to invite your friends, there is no charge for this event. The ceremony will begin at 5pm and end at 7pm when the sun sets. Here is a link to where we are meeting and parking info at Lifeguard Station #26 down on the beach at 2600 Barnard Way. South of Ocean Park and Neilson Way intersection. Santa Monica, CA 90405

RSVP to Joanna@BigMiracleBreakthrough.com or just show up and I’ll be happy to see you!

Love & miracles,

Joanna Garzilli

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I’m a Scorpio and I used to be really proud to be this astrological sign because it is known as “The Sex Sign” of the zodiac system. I thought being a sexy sign was powerful because it would make me more desirable and loveable.

As a teenager my mom used to quote Queen’s hit song, “Another One Bites The Dust” because I would dump a guy as soon as he gave me any love. I also became obsessed with chasing guys who were absolutely emotionally unavailable.

My core belief system was, love is getting someone to do what I want. Love is being told I am beautiful and sexy. Love is someone wanting my body.  I didn’t have a healthy foundation about the meaning of love. I didn’t have guidance about how to recognize the difference between a healthy loving relationship and toxic love.

When it came to love, my thoughts were insane at times. After one date with a guy who was aloof and playing games with me, I was hooked. I wanted him to want me. I was obsessed with winning him over. I couldn’t focus on getting anything else done. I would talk on the phone for hours with whoever would listen in my circle of friends to my latest love drama.

When I hear someone say, “There’s no good guys out there, they’re all taken,” I have to disagree. I believe there is someone out there for everyone. You have to first believe that it is possible for you to meet someone. If you can’t believe yet because you’ve been so hurt or betrayed in past relationships, that’s okay because there is another attitude you can practice…surrender.

When I was 32-years-old, I was financially broke and heart broken. I watched the movie “13 Going On 30″ with the intention of checking out from my reality because I had a lot of self-loathing and feelings of shame. I cried my eyes out when I saw Jennifer Garner and Mark Ruffalo’s characters get together and live happily ever after because my life felt so far from having that experience.

I got down on my hands and knees and as I wailed, tears streaming down my cheeks said, “God, why not me? I want to meet my husband.”

I heard a voice in my head say, “You’re not committed.” I felt angry. Why did that inner voice say that, it just wasn’t true? That night when I went to sleep, I reflected on this intuition (inner teacher). Something clicked at a cellular level as I surrendered to being a know it all and wanting to do things my way. I had been committed to uncommitted people because I was scared of opening my heart, falling in love and being abandoned.

I carried deep shame for years that I proposed to a guy because I didn’t think I was worthy of true love. After he said yes, I gave him $5 to buy me an engagement ring. I remember showing off the ring but feeling sick inside. I needed to do a love detox. I didn’t know where to start. If you have gone through many toxic relationships or are in one now, I urge you not to hide from your feelings. When I was in denial, I went financially broke because my spirit was broken.

I finally decided to commit to love. I didn’t know how it would show up in my life but I was willing. A couple of weeks later I met my husband Nick. He told me that he had gone to church and told God he was ready to meet his wife. We met in a small theater in Hollywood, CA doing a sketch comedy show.

Here are 3 Love Detox Tools:

#1 Write a list of all your past dates, lovers and relationships that you can remember?

Next to each name, write why you were with that person, what was your motivation for being with them?

#2 Go through your list of names and label each one with “I ended the relationship” or “They ended the relationship”. For 10 minutes write a stream of consciousness of what pattern you see around your love path.

#3 Complete this exercise with giving thanks for the lesson you learned with each person on the list. Until you can take responsibility for your part, you will not be able to let go.

Be gentle and kind to yourself. You don’t purge years of toxic love in 15 minutes but if you take 5 minutes each day to focus on letting go of your toxic love story, miracles can happen!

Love & Miracles,

Joanna Garzilli

xo xo xo

Joanna Garzilli is author of The Big Miracle Breakthrough 90 Day Program and Unleash The Psychic In You: How To Trust Your Intuition for Successful Decision Making. She was most recently on Fox News, sharing how to use your intuition for online dating. In two years, she went from being massively in debt, unemployed and having a series of failed relationships to creating a successful TV show, happily married with a beautiful son, with a thriving multiple six-figures business. Check out her websites at http://JoannaGarzilli.com and http://BigMiracleBreakthrough.com

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I love spring. It gives me a sense of hope and excitement. Where I have been focusing on the negative, I have renewed sight. Things that used to bother me, I see as miracles. People that used to upset me, I now see as spiritual teachers, that we had a sacred contract to fulfill.

Spring is an opportunity to clear away paperwork, get clear on finances and become more aware of what we put in our bodies.

I have a burning desire to talk about SMASH again. My husband and I were watching the fifth episode last night. There’s this scene where Ivy Lynn, the actress who is set to play Marilyn goes to see her director, Derek Wells. Ivy has had a few too many drinks and she shows up late night at Derek’s pad. Their exchange was awkward. She had felt humiliated by the way he had treated her. He told her, that it wasn’t personal, then asked her to stay the night. I wanted to scream at her, “Go home! Derek is no good for you, he’s a narcissist and you are damaged goods”.

I had been in Ivy Lynn’s shoes in the past. Let me confirm that I have never been on Broadway, singing is not my strength but I did have a relationship with a film director when I was an actress. This man was a classic narcissist but I didn’t see him as that. He pursued me for many weeks and the more I said I wasn’t interested, the more he chased after me. I didn’t realize I liked the attention, even though I wasn’t attracted to him and then one night, after we’d finished shooting the movie, we met up for a late night dinner and I said to him “It’s never going to happen”. I believed with every part of my soul that nothing was ever going to happen because my intuition told me from the day I met him that this was a dangerous man, not to be trusted.

Later that night, our relationship began to my absolute surprise, however if I’d been giving myself a psychic reading, it would have been totally apparent that I was about to play with fire. I was in serious denial. As the relationship progressed, I became obsessed with what he thought of me and what he was doing. It was the unhealthiest, toxic type of love and it meant that I couldn’t focus on my work. Everything I did was with the desire to get his approval and so the deal I had with a big TV network fell through and I felt like a victim of Hollywood, used and abused.

Now I can look back and see that this director didn’t do anything wrong. He was being himself and I was set on changing him. My big time talent agency weren’t trying to screw me. I was naïve and didn’t know my worth. Today, when I feel the past pull me backwards, away from the blessings in my life today, I am aware that psychic healing needs to occur. As we form relationships, whether they are romantic, business, friendship that an energy connection is made at a soul level and this energy is connected throughout time and space.

Your past affects your present and your present impacts your future. Where is your mind during the day? Is it focused on a betrayal in a relationship? Is there anything from your past that is affecting the way you make decisions today? If you say no, you are not looking deep enough.

Today is an opportunity to Spring Clean Your Soul. Remove the cobwebs from the past, gently but with intention. I created a guided meditation as part of Big Miracle Breakthrough specifically to Spring Clean Your Soul because I have seen many times for my clients and myself how energy that is invisible to your eyes, impacts your life today.

Spirit gave me the call to host a Spring Equinox Healing, Prayer & Manifestation Circle in Santa Monica on Thursday March 22, 2012 @5pm PST. You are invited! This is an opportunity for you to:

• Spring Clean Your Soul
• Pray for loved ones, family, friends and those who are in need around the world
• Awaken Your Intuition to the next level
• Activate the Healer within
• Receive a Message from Spirit about Manifesting your Heart & Soul’s Desire in 2012 and Beyond
• Release money and love energy attachments to create space for abundance and healthy relationships

Please feel free to invite your friends, there is no charge for this event. The ceremony will begin at 5pm and end at 7pm when the sun sets.  Here is a link to where we are meeting and parking info at Lifeguard Station #26 down on the beach at 2600 Barnard Way. South of Ocean Park and Neilson Way intersection. Santa Monica, CA 90405 R.S.V.P. to Joanna@BigMiracleBreakthrough.com

Joanna Garzilli is an author, entrepreneur, intuition coach and psychic.  Follow her on Twitter here.